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December 23rd, 2009

02:58 pm - challenges.
I know I was so pissed off, what, an hour ago? Not even? It's amazing, what reading a good book can do for you. (: Incidentally, the book is "A Time For Dancing", and I highly recommend it.

I'm taking a reading challenge this year...

Farenheit 451 Challenge, hosted by As Usual, We Need More Bookshelves.
It's kind of hard to describe, so I'll just paste what they put.

"451 Fridays is based on an idea from Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury. In his novel, a group of people (Bradbury calls them Book People) are trying to keep the ideas found in books alive. Instead of actually saving the books, the Book People each "become" a book - memorizing it, word for word, and passing it down to the next generation.

451 Fridays asks what books you feel passionate about. What book do you think is so important that you would be willing to take on the challenge of "becoming"?

We have compiled an amazing list of books this year in our weekly 451 Fridays posts, and it's time to start reading them! So, the 451 Challenge was born.

Here is how it will work: between January 1, 2010 and November 30, 2010, participants are challenged to read books on the 451 master list. There will be several levels of participation:

Spark - read 1-2 books from the master list
Ember - read 3-4 books from the master list
Flame - read 5-6 books from the master list
Blaze - read 7 or more books from the master list

Re-reading is acceptable, as are crossovers with other challenges. Audio, print, and e-books are all acceptable. Each month, participants will be encouraged to post their reviews on the challenge blog, and each review posted will be an entry into a grand prize drawing for a $25 gift card to the online bookseller of the winner's choice."

I'm doing the Blaze one, with the books:

Different Seasons
A Tale of Two Cities
Farenheit 451
A Christmas Carol
Little Women
Hitchhikers' Guide to the Galaxy

That should be enough to tide me over... o.o That's scary.

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02:07 pm - we were merely freshmen.
God. Sometimes I hate people.

That is all. More later, if I can stomach writing about it.

People make me sick.
Current Mood: pissed offpissed off

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December 10th, 2009

05:04 pm - i hear you whisper across the sea.
so yesterday was my audition to get my dance in the show for dance company. xD i completely forgot everything after the first three eight counts, but Kim said i did a really good job, so who knows? i forgot to ask Lauren, but i'll see what she thought.

i figure, it was my first time choreographing a minute long piece by myself, and then performing it, again by myself. if i did bad, there's always next year.

(: in other news? today, in Government, we learned about the 6 Day war. complete with my teacher, acting a Israel, standing on some kid and talking about how he 'ruled the world' because of America. i don't think that's legal, but it was entertaining. (:
Current Mood: giddygiddy

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December 1st, 2009

04:26 pm - because i knew you.
so i know i'm only a sophomore, and i haven't really 'lived my life' yet, and i shouldn't even be saying this, but... i miss my old friends. more then i'd thought i would.

destiny was always there for me. she was my rock, the one person who i could go to her house crying buckets, and she never asked questions, only asked if i was spending the night or not. she never made me talk when i didn't want to. she helped me get out of my shell, and i'm happier for it.

holly was the one i could go to when i needed advice. she always told me when i was being a dumbass, and she helped me so much after dad died.

i miss them so much. i know, i was the stupid one, but was it really right? i mean, i cut myself... so they abandoned me.

i don't know. maybe i'm just being petty? but i really do miss them. when you lose friends that you're close to, it's like you need to replace, but you can't? yeah, that's how i feel. ><

but the person they've made me into, the person who cried on destiny's shoulder and laughed all night with holly, that person's still here. i still laugh at our inside jokes, even if they don't. the memories they've left me with won't go away. i remember going to the cottage, writing crackfics, 4 am trips to 711. i remember it all, and i miss it more then i should.

because i knew them, i've been changed. for better or worse, nobody knows. but i have, and i can't go back.

christmas needs to get here.
Current Mood: blankthinking
Current Music: for good- wicked

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November 17th, 2009

04:35 pm - no time for music, i'm writing.
Ha, wow.

10,000 words seems so far ago.

I got to 50K. 56K, actually, now. (: And I officially have my favorite line from the story:

She grabbed my arm, and i jerked away, but when I pulled back her hand print was still there, death's autograph.

-shudder- I don't know why i love it as i do, but the entire scene seems pretty good to me. (:

I'm almost done with my novel. :D I think after I edit it, I'm going to post excerpts... If anyone is reading this, that is. I still don't even know...

I suppose that's all for now.
Current Location: home.
Current Mood: happyhappy

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November 6th, 2009

11:30 am - and i don't even know his last name.
Yay! (: My word count's up. I'm a fifth of the way there! I've got... 10,015 words. d: I wanted to write so much more, but I literally fell asleep at the computer last night.

The only reason I'm typing this now is because I stayed home from school. Because I'm sick. Sadly, not the swine flu; I kind of wanted to see if I got any pig-related presents. xD

My plot's coming along nicely. (: Finally to the real heart of it, where I plan to bask for the next 40K. xD

Bah. This is boring. Ah, well. I have nothing more to say.
Current Music: Last Name- Carrie Underwood

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October 20th, 2009

03:33 pm - Sure on this shining night, of star-made shadows 'round...
Kindness must watch for me, this si-i-ide the ground...

Whoo! Sorry, all. (Right, like anyone reads this.) I've just left school, and what do I have last hour? Choir, of course. And we've got a concert tonight, so I've got ^^ that song stuck in my head. xP It's a pretty song, but I wish we didn't have to sing it...

Ah, well. (: Chin up, eh? Yeah, suddenly turned British...

OKAY! New topic.

... Dance. My fallback option, always. (: I had to skip yesterday because of Choir (Huh, everything seems to lead back to that, huh?) and it depressed me. xP I really enjoy having my 3 days a week of dance, and the extra exercise never hurts. (;

This year, we're doing Thriller for Opener. :D I'm so excited, it's my first year in the class, and who doesn't know that song? Plus, it's going to be far cooler then it's been in past years. (;

So I love fall. The season, I mean. Not the act of falling, I don't enjoy that much... Anywho, I'm so happy it's Fall again, I love the colors and the crisp (not cold) air, and... Gah. I don't know, I really enjoy it. It's my favorite season. (:

I'm a boring person. Sorry.

I guess that's all I have to say... Ciao, all. (:


Current Location: home, for now.
Current Mood: annoyedannoyed
Current Music: what's in my head. xP

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October 17th, 2009

01:30 pm - i'm not usually this way, but...
So. Wow. I haven't updated this in quite a long time. Not that it matters; I don't exactly have 'regular' readers. xP But still, I told myself that I'd update frequently. And... 6 weeks isn't frequently.

Not that I'll be updating next month, either, as I've joined NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month). :D I'm writing a novel called Letters and Lies, though the title will probably be changed. It's way different from anything I've ever written; it's a murder mystery/romance/drama/humor. And probably another genre I'm forgetting...

Blah. It's better then last year's, at least. It was a cliched story about a girl with a dead father. The only part I really like is the bits where she talks about when he died, and that just makes me cry. Not because I'm an excellent writer, mind you - because it makes me think about my dad.

I'm hoping it turns out okay.

In other news? ... There isn't that much, really... I'm a fairly boring person, you see. But now I'm going to put a list of books that I've (recently) read that I really enjoyed:

A Wolf at the Table
- Augusten Burroughs.

This is really an amazing book. It's the prequel to Running With Scissors, and it's the story of his father, who's a homicidal sociopath. -shudder- It's heartbreaking, honestly. I read it, thinking it was going to be like A Child Called 'It', but it was totally different. In some ways, it was more frightening, because the way he writes is just so gripping.

It's Kind of a Funny Story - Ned Vizzini

This is a cute book. (: It's honest, though it's fiction, and even though it's about depression, it's a generally happy-toned book. I really enjoyed reading it, it was really well-written and original.

That's it. (: I highly recommend these to anyone who may happen to be reading this. And if you are, then I thank you. (:

I guess that's all? Yeah. Gotta go plan!


Current Music: taylor swift - fearless

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September 1st, 2009

11:44 am - Winging It
Well, summer's nearing an end. I've gotten all of my clothes, some notebooks. I've gotten tanner, let my hair grow out. I've stayed up all night, slept all day. Had sleepovers far too numerous to count, and had 'nighttime adventures'. Dyed my hair and got rid of my glasses. Wrote thousands of words and reviewed chapters upon chapters. Baked cookies and cakes, brownies and lemon squares. Watched entire seasons of shows in a day, gone to the zoo on more then one occasion. Went swimming and sunbathing. Danced and rested. Discovered new authors and new musicians. Seen new movies and gotten new shoes. Had my heart shattered and rebuilt.

Here I am. One summer older. One summer wiser, one might say. But I just feel... Empty. I don't want to return to school. I feel like, this summer, I've strengthened my friendships with certain people so much, and I don't want to lose that. Maybe I'm just too nostalgic; I always feel happier after I watch movies that I loved as a small child. But here...

I'm starting at a new school. I feel like I'm teetering on the edge of something unknown, something I don't know if I'm ready for. I'm only a sophomore, yes, but up until now, I've always had my friends. New school? It was fine, I had at least one friend that had stuck beside me for all those years.

But now I have nothing, or, rather, no one. I don't know if I'm going to be 'popular' or not. Not that it's insanely important to me, you realize; I just don't know. And that's the most difficult thing. I don't know if I'm going to make any friends, even. Sure, I had friends at AAW, but who's to say it's going to be like that at the new school?

I suppose I just need to learn to go with the flow. And, like the title of my most recent story, just... Wing It. (:

Current Mood: anxiousanxious

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August 12th, 2009

03:12 pm - so of course, you'll be distracted when i spike the punch.
ugh. i miss the days of last summer. it was the hardest summer of my life, but at the same time, it was one of the greatest. ignoring Dad's death, i mean; there's no way that could ever be considered good. but, i became really close to my friends, and i went up north with one of them a few times.
but then i, being a complete dumbass, cut myself, told her i wouldn't, and did it again.
we don't talk anymore.
i mean, it's not like i expected us to be best friends, but at least... not shutting me off would've been nice. but... i feel like i lost something irreplacable, you know? i lost two of my closest friends over it, and i have the [faint] scars to prove it.
now i'm afraid of losing my best guy friend, as i'm going to a new school; he's been my rock, the guy i could depend on for five years, and i don't want to lose him.
ugh. i miss the days when you met someone at a park, and you just clicked, you know? you'd be best friends, and you wouldn't fight; what would there be to fight about? who got to play with what toys in the sandbox? who got to swing higher? meaningless problems.
i sound like i'm forty. but, i miss my friends. i miss how it used to be with us, we were close, amazingly so. and now i feel like i'm losing everyone.
ugh, i'm done with this. i'm getting depressed again.
Current Mood: lost in memories(:
Current Music: Panic at the Disco <3

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